**___SiNaR kEhiDuPaN__

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

FiNaLLY the musabaqah thing is over... phew.. 1st time. naik stage seram sejuk! haha. tapi best jgak ah dapat try.. but never get to the final.. *sobz* but the judge says kalo ade time extra, yg tk kene selected pon akan naik pentas untk final nnti. hahaha. im reconsidering of goin or not.. kat mejed sultan.. kul 7pm..? haiya.. so far yet so late... hmm... tgklah keadaan nnti~
2 more papers left! then im gonna be freed!!! bila laa nak abish.. bsok.. paper ta'bir.. then on wed is hadis.. haiyo... still hafaling half way. ma'na hadis blom lagik nih! phew... kk gtg study again~ weeeEe~!

.::. oUtz.. sHa .::. 12:22 PM

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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah wallahu akbar

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah hasbi Allah

Di tepi kerinduanku

Memandang hampa pada dunia

Ku hanya orang biasa

Tak lepas dari rasa kecewa
Hanya padaMu tempatku mengadu

Pahit yg kini menyiksaku

Aku percaya tiada yg sia-sia

Semua kan ada hikmahnya

Subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah wallahu akbar

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah hasbi Allah

Angan yg membalut mimpi

Dulu melukis nyanyian hati

Ku hanya orang yg kalah

Satukan hatiku yg terbelah

Hanya padaMu tempatku mengadu

Pahit yg kini menyiksaku

Aku percaya tiada yg sia-sia

Semua kan ada hikmahnya

Subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah wallahu akbar

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah hasbi Allah...

.::. oUtz.. sHa .::. 10:55 PM

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Tuesday, August 08, 2006

im so thankful to Allah for giving me good frens. school activities has been goin on n on n its increasing especially the month of Ramadhan is around the corner. Well, its okay, with these activities, it helps me to put away the sorrowness deep inside. most importantly, im happy to get partnered wif syidah!! we've been appointed to be programmers for every activities. alhamdulillah. its juz our luck to be in the same group n be partnered. masyaAllah. insyaAllah, things will be more easier n organised for us to work on 2gether. insyaAllah...

2 days of weekends plus 2 days of MCs plus 1 day of public holiday for national day equals to 5 DAYS AT HOME!! Phew~ real enuff rest! well, im enjoying it too.. got to help mum clear off some stuffs. hmm.. been having fever since last friday. but now the temp is decreasing back to normal again alhamdulillah. juz couldn't stop thinking of something dat makes me sick. im down wif stress n depression. all in 1 go! aarrghh.. no point of thinking abt it then. with the energy dat i had regain frm Allah, i must make full use of it. im not gonna waste it like wat sumone had waste my love for nutin. no way. love is sumting precious 4 me. its not sumting easy to pick n throw juz like dat. to pick it, it means alot of hardship, and, to throw it, it means alot of pain, sorrow n depression. okay, im not gonna strt my mood again. ive enuff of fever. yah.. thnx to whoever did this..

wokay! now.. back to skool! awh.. im missing my classmates.. im sure they miss me too! haha. yahh.. especially the gals...! wat i can say abt my classmates, we have the class spirit. one's for one, one's for all!! yeah! Live PD2!! hahaha. nwe, thnx to syidah for calling me to inform on watever happens in skool. yeah, its the spirit! haha.

okay enuff on watever spirit..now im in the spirit of snooring! haha. may my dream comes true~

.::. oUtz.. sHa .::. 10:42 PM

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Friday, July 28, 2006

my silence doesn't mean im in peace. day by day i waited news frm him. i won't give in easily and im not gonna make the 1st move. if i do, dat really shows he's not a gentleman! i hate un-gentlemen. REALLY. of course i wouldn't want to be wif sumone who doesn't now how to understand other's feelings. who would want dat?? dun think im a girl who can give in to boys easily. NO WAY!

Diam mu bukan suatu ketenangan,
bahkan ia adalah suatu penderitaan,
hatiku sebak apabila ku kenangkan,
alangkah bodohnya aku utk meluahkn.
Apabila diluka sekali,
tidak mungkin aku mengulangi lagi,
jika ini adalah tetapan pasti,
hanya Tuhan yg maha mengetahui.
Hatiku gelisah,
Hatiku sebak,
Hatiku bagaikan di ukir dgn pisau yg tajam.
Tiada ertinya hidup di dunia dgn cinta yg palsu,
akanku semadikan cintaku dgn Allah yang satu.
Aku lelah, aku muak dgn cinta dan kata2 manis yg sering diperbualkan,
kini ku sedar akan apa yg harus ku lakukan.
Langkahku mudah,
mudah di lidah,
tetapi sukar tuk dilaksanakan.
Walau apapun yg harusku lalui,
akan ku capai cinta nikmat Tuhanku yg suci.
Semoga Allah kurniakan kekuatan pada diri ini,
untuk melangkah melaksanakn niat yg murni ini...

hMm..hanya tuhan saje yg tahu. jodoh dan ajal maut ditangan Allah.. waAllahu'alam....

.::. oUtz.. sHa .::. 10:42 PM

[[* iM bAcK! *]]

Saturday, July 01, 2006

BIRTHDATE AT CHALET
fuH.. lamer betul aku dah tk tulis kat dlm blog ni. haaa.. nilaa tiba masanya utk aku bebual panjang....kalo nk ikutkan hati mmg panjang giller crite aku. tapi oleh kerana mata pon dah kuyup.. hehe.. aku pon ringkaskn sket jelah. crite2 sket je..

woKay! 1st thing 1st,
thanks u to aLL my fwenz, cuzin and siape2 jelahh who came for my birthdate at the chalet! its such an unforgetable birthDATE 24/06/2006. i enjoyed it veeRrrRryYy mUcH! haha. syukur pada Allah kerana telah panjangkan umur aku and dapat kasi aku peluang utk memperluaskn mindaku disamping umurku meningkat setahun. =) seriously.. tahun ni punye besdate was very unusual... smuer mcm last minute. dpt chalet pon sehari sblom besdate aku. haha. aku dapat msg dari mak aku time kat skola. terkejot berok aku dibuatnyee.. hehehehe. chalet tu 2 tingkat mcm bangalow~ puas tul aku amek gambar kat sane. hehe. nwe, yeah.. the occation was only for 1 day which falls on saturday only, but we had 3 days till mon. ape lagie... enjoyYy!!! haha. okk, relax... time on saturday(besdate aku) kitorng ber-barbecue, makan cake 5 kotaK! haha. n sembang2 wif my gaLs... smpai satu2 naik ngantok. haha. sorie galz... kalo aku tk layan sgt.. maklumlah.. ramai org nk jumpa "Princess of the day" laa katekan.. =P muahahaha.

my presents:
-a set of brooch (very nice!!)
-a motivational book (its cool! i like the author!)
-$10+$10+$10+$5+$5+$5+$5=$50 (all plus together mak2 org kasi. hehehe)
-and.. gosh! i 4got to take the cards in the letter box! hmm.. nvrmind i'll go n
take 2molo mornin.. hehe. lupe da... (lupe sbb sibukz sgt..jgn marah!)

then on sun, my fam n i spent the day together n we went to the nearby beach. woW! so long never been to the beach! not 2 4get my cuzin bro. yeah he came along wif us. kewl!~ my bro n cuzin made alot of comedies and i video captured them. haha. so fun! i totally enjoy for this year... wouldn't noe how it will be 4 nxt year. am i gonna reach dat age? waAllahu'alam.. =)

dats the end of my birthdate n chalet story.. *the story dat helps me to wake up frm my dreamland*~

-now-pause-

BACK TO SCHOOL!
oh my God... so many projects, assingments and most challenging of all PRESENTATIONS!!! aaarrggghh!! so the very paisey! haha. the 1st time i did my presentation was on last week. mula2 gementar.. suara pon nak hilang. haha. paisey giller.. but luckily i have cooperate classmates n fwenz.. they help me to build my self-confidence. haha. slowly, i became firm n have e confidence through out the presentation. but cannot lari dari jokes ah. hehe. kalo tkde jokes mcm boring gitu kan. hahaha. well, this isn't a group presentation, but its personally 1 by 1. dats stressed me up! but now.. im ok2 laa. another 2 more presentations for the class n 1 more 4 the whole zuhrians! aaaarrrghhh!~ dgn the whole skool?? seram sejukk~... hehehe. paisey jiddan! hahahaha. tkpe.. relax.. kewl je... cukup time berdiri kat depan senyum, beri salam, lambai pastu ucapkan "wassalam". amaciam? ok tak? hahaha. oklahh.. nk hafal n blaja 4 nxt wk's test.. haiz.. life is getting more busierest! hahaha. dah mepek dah aku.. baik aku blah dulu.. =) *peace*

.::. oUtz.. sHa .::. 10:03 PM

[[* LaTeLy~ *]]

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

SEKALUNG DOA

Ya Allah, ya Rahman, ya Rahim
Engkaulah yang Maha Pengasih
Engkaulah yang Maha Penyayang
Kepada Mu aku merayu
Kepada Mu aku mengadu
Betapa ku mengaku terlalu luas rezeki yang Engkau curahkan
Terlalu banyak nikmat yang Engkau limpahkan
Mataku, telingaku, mulut dan lidahku
Sepasang tanganku, sepasang kakiku
Nyawaku, nafasku, hati dan perasaanku
Malah setiap helaian rambutku adalah nikmat dari Mu, Tuhanku
Lantas keagungan dan kemurahan Mu,
Kelembutan dan kecintaan Mu
Menuntut syukur yang tiada bertepi dariku
Namun aku mengaku juga Tuhanku
Betapa gersang hatiku daripada mensyukuri Mu
Betapa kontang lidahku daripada menyebut nama Mu

Betapa angkuh tubuhku melanggar hukum Mu
Betapa sombong jiwaku melupakan Mu
Betapa lemasnya aku dihanyutkan ombak maksiat terhadap Mu
Maka di sinilah kini aku sebagai hamba Mu
Melutut merayu keampunan Mu
Melutut merayu kasih sayang Mu
Ku tadahkan kedua tapak tanganku ini buat Mu ya Allah
Biarpun ku sedar betapa telah
Ku cemarkan ia dengan kemurkaan Mu
Ku tundukkan wajahku ini di hadapan kebesaran Mu
Biarpun ku tahu betapa telah ku kotorkan ia
Dengan pandangan yang mengundang kebencian Mu
Tetapi tiada tempat lain untukku mengadu
Tiada siapa untukku mohonkan pengampunan
Tiada siapa ku harapkan kecintaan
Melainkan pada Mu

Ya Allah, aku telah banyak menzalimi diriku sendiri
Andai kata dosa-dosaku tidak Engkau ampuni
Andai kata aku tidak Engkau rahmati dan kasihani
Nescaya termasuklah aku
Di dalam golongan hamba-hamba Mu yang rugi
Jadikanlah cinta kepada Mu itu
Cinta yang paling agung di dalam hati ini
Janganlah Engkau biarkan jiwa ini
Terus keras dikuasai nafsu syahwani
Lantaran terlalu takutnya aku akan kemurkaan Mu
Terlalu gerunnya aku terhadap azab Mu
Jadikanlah rindu kepada Mu itu hiasan utama dalam hidupku
Agar dapat ku rasakan manis menghambakan diri kepada Mu
Bagaimana dapat ku susuri hidup yang singkat ini
Andai Engkau biarkan aku tercampak jauh
Dari cinta Mu yang suci
Aku ini hamba Mu yang lemah, ya Allah
Tiada daya dan tiada upayaku
Kecuali dengan bantuan dari Mu
Tiada pedoman untukku hidup di dunia ini
Kecuali hanya dengan hidayah dan petunjuk Mu
Anugerahkanlah aku jalan yang lurus Tuhanku
Janganlah Engkau pesongkan hatiku
Setelah Engkau kurniakan hidayah Mu padaku
Jadikanlah aku hamba Mu
Yang berkejaran mendapatkan redha Mu
Jadikanlah aku hamba Mu
Yang istiqamah menyusuli sunnah rasul Mu
Jadikanlah aku hamba Mu
Yang soleh melaksanakan perintah Mu
Jadikanlah aku hamba Mu
Yang dinaungi perlindungan Mu
Jadikanlah aku hamba Mu
Yang merendah diri di hadapan ketinggian Mu
Berkatilah rezekiku yang telah Engkau curahkan
Agar dapat ku rasa cukup
Dengan apa yang Engkau tetapkan
Berkatilah ilmuku yang telah Engkau anugerahkan
Agar dapat ku mengamalkannya
Dalam melaksanakan ketaatan
Berkatilah usiaku dan umurku
Yang telah Engkau peruntukkan
Agar dapat ku siapkan diriku
Untuk bekalan di Hari Pembalasan
Ya Allah, berkatilah seluruh keluargaku
Agar dapat ku rasakan ketenangan kasih dan sayang
Hidup di atas muka bumi Mu
Ya Allah, hidup dan matiku
Adalah kerana Mu dan hanya untuk Mu
Nyawaku, nafasku, jiwaku,
Degupan jantungku, aliran darahku
Segala yang Engkau titikkan padaku
Ku serahkan hanya untuk MU
Engkaulah yang Maha mengetahui
Segala rahsia diriku, zahir dan batinku
Ampunkanlah kesalahan-kesalahanku
Hapuskanlah dosa-dosaku
Padamkanlah kotoran-kotoran
Yang masih ada pada diriku ini
Sucikanlah hatiku, lembutkanlah jiwaku
Tinggikanlah darjatku
Kurniakanlah kepadaku
Segala kebaikan di Dunia,segala kebaikan di Akhirat
Lindungilah aku dari siksa api neraka Mu
Tuhanku, aku pasrah kepada Mu
.........................
Senikata: Md Fatris Bakaram
Lagu: Sha'aban Yahya
Bacaan & Suara Latar: Nur Irsyad
© NUR IRSYAD

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hmm.. this is wat ive been listening lately.. the lyric really touches everyone's heart. remember nur irsyad team? yeah.. they're my inspiration man.. haha. lamer dah kumpulan tu. skrg tgk mcm dah tukar org je. hehe. yg baru nye album aku tk dgr ah.. aku masih ter-stick kat album lamer diorng... fav song aku Jejak Uhud, Illahi and Sekalung doa.... tuu kat atas tuu liriknya.. kalo nk lirik yg lain silalah ke web ---> http://www.nurirsyad.com/album1.htm hehehe. promote plak aku niee. hehehe. tkdelaa.. saje je nk kongsi...

nwe, the last 3 days i visited the zoo. finally!! haha. its been ages i didn't get to go to the zoo.. well, yah.. thats my second home where all animals can be keep in. hehehe. they're all soo cute!!! especially the white tiger. really reminds me of winky! hehe. hmm.. when i grow up, i plan to have goats! hahaha. they always smile. i like animals which like to smiiilleee~ hehehe *sortz* but the sad thing... i didn't get to touch them.. =( want to touch? must pay!! aaarrrgghhh.. wat man... nvrmindlah. nxt time can. hehehe. nxt time when i got the opportunity to visit the zoo again, i plan to go for a pony ride!!! yipeee!!! n also elephant ride! insyaAllah.. well, kite merancang Allah menentukan... ntah bsok aku masih hidup lagi ke tak.. waAllahu'alam.. hmmMmm.. oklah.. when i got the photos ready, i'll upload it 1 day. ;>

.::. oUtz.. sHa .::. 8:23 AM

[[* ~cEpAt bEtuL mAsA bErLaLu~ *]]

Saturday, May 20, 2006

can u believe it?? ive finish my exams!!! rase mcm cepat gitu masa berlalu. time 1st day of skool smpai skrg masa skeeejapp gituh. masyaAllah... nwe, im so relieved dat my papers are all over. woOw... im juz frustrated abt dis 1 subject. aarrrgghh..dun want to tink abt it la! all i hope is paSS... yesterday was my last paper. so this morning i FINALLY get to watch ice-age2!!! yeahh! so heapppy! hahaha. lamer tu woiy tgu nak tgk... mengeliur je tgk cover dvd tu. muahahaha. but at last dpt jgak ah tgk.. lps tgk movie.. i move on to my housewrk. woOoooOoo!! lamer tul aku tk pegang keje rumah. 2 weeks? is dat long?? hahaha. ya laa of course.. nk harapkn sape lagiee. sane cni berabok......mane kucing2 punye keje lagi jatuh2kn mende2. haiz.. time exam jgn harap laa aku nk melayan mende2 gini. haha. aku tahu responsible aku early morning b4 walk out of the house must aNgKaT taik kuncing wooooo.... tkpe laa.. dah nasib.. hahaha. nwe yah thnx to Allah for given me enuff strength to lift up the living n dining table all by myself juz now. manyak berat woo.. wa punya bilakang jadi sakit woo.. lagi2 timpat opilation woo.. haha. xpe aaa.. nk wat cmne. nobody's at home.tkkn nk harapkn bonda. noooo... i dun dare... nnti dia sakit lg pening kepala aku dibuatnye.. heheheh. tp berbaloi jgak aa saket2 pon..frm end to end tip top bersihh je.. bonda juz concentrate on wash n dry clothes plus cooking. hehehe. wonderful day! baitiey wa jannatiey~

recently byk pulakk kucing2 stray kat luar dtg kat dpn rumah.but one of them really caught my attention.i dun noe whether is it a he or she coz its feather is too thick. guess wat cat it is? its a persian!!! oh my gosh!!! persian!!! my dad name it persy. i juz dun understand why do pple do let go of this tamely cat. only one big problem that holds me back of not letting the cat in. its flea!!! omg again! flea!!! haiya.. its such a waste man... but nvrmind, as long as persy stays in front of my gate, i'll try my best to get the fleas away from it. damn pity man.. such a nice n tame cat yet become so dirty n unattended... so sad... its okay.. persy can be mackie's fren out there. hehe. then juz this evening, there's an another cat. i was shocked! it is black wif stripes. my mom says in the old days that type of cat was called as "wild cats" or "kucning hutan". but now dunno la wat cat it is called.hehe.to me all same.all are cUtE!! hehehe. nwe its a male. i tink he's juz lost his way. looks like his body is well fed.not so skinny.well too bad then i got to chase him away wif some splashes of water.cruel me.. well, i have to! if not, he will get his terrortory everywhere infront of my house! he'll pee here n there. nooo wayyy.. im not gonna responsible 4 it. stinks man... enuff for the ones indoors...yah well aniwei that cat has gone. i believed he can take good care of himslef unlike persy...

wokay~! enuff of me here... im getting sleepy~ 2morow got class somemore..... haven't prepare a thing! haha. better get goin~

.::. oUtz.. sHa .::. 10:25 PM