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Friday, July 28, 2006

my silence doesn't mean im in peace. day by day i waited news frm him. i won't give in easily and im not gonna make the 1st move. if i do, dat really shows he's not a gentleman! i hate un-gentlemen. REALLY. of course i wouldn't want to be wif sumone who doesn't now how to understand other's feelings. who would want dat?? dun think im a girl who can give in to boys easily. NO WAY!

Diam mu bukan suatu ketenangan,
bahkan ia adalah suatu penderitaan,
hatiku sebak apabila ku kenangkan,
alangkah bodohnya aku utk meluahkn.
Apabila diluka sekali,
tidak mungkin aku mengulangi lagi,
jika ini adalah tetapan pasti,
hanya Tuhan yg maha mengetahui.
Hatiku gelisah,
Hatiku sebak,
Hatiku bagaikan di ukir dgn pisau yg tajam.
Tiada ertinya hidup di dunia dgn cinta yg palsu,
akanku semadikan cintaku dgn Allah yang satu.
Aku lelah, aku muak dgn cinta dan kata2 manis yg sering diperbualkan,
kini ku sedar akan apa yg harus ku lakukan.
Langkahku mudah,
mudah di lidah,
tetapi sukar tuk dilaksanakan.
Walau apapun yg harusku lalui,
akan ku capai cinta nikmat Tuhanku yg suci.
Semoga Allah kurniakan kekuatan pada diri ini,
untuk melangkah melaksanakn niat yg murni ini...

hMm..hanya tuhan saje yg tahu. jodoh dan ajal maut ditangan Allah.. waAllahu'alam....

.::. oUtz.. sHa .::. 10:42 PM

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Saturday, July 01, 2006

BIRTHDATE AT CHALET
fuH.. lamer betul aku dah tk tulis kat dlm blog ni. haaa.. nilaa tiba masanya utk aku bebual panjang....kalo nk ikutkan hati mmg panjang giller crite aku. tapi oleh kerana mata pon dah kuyup.. hehe.. aku pon ringkaskn sket jelah. crite2 sket je..

woKay! 1st thing 1st,
thanks u to aLL my fwenz, cuzin and siape2 jelahh who came for my birthdate at the chalet! its such an unforgetable birthDATE 24/06/2006. i enjoyed it veeRrrRryYy mUcH! haha. syukur pada Allah kerana telah panjangkan umur aku and dapat kasi aku peluang utk memperluaskn mindaku disamping umurku meningkat setahun. =) seriously.. tahun ni punye besdate was very unusual... smuer mcm last minute. dpt chalet pon sehari sblom besdate aku. haha. aku dapat msg dari mak aku time kat skola. terkejot berok aku dibuatnyee.. hehehehe. chalet tu 2 tingkat mcm bangalow~ puas tul aku amek gambar kat sane. hehe. nwe, yeah.. the occation was only for 1 day which falls on saturday only, but we had 3 days till mon. ape lagie... enjoyYy!!! haha. okk, relax... time on saturday(besdate aku) kitorng ber-barbecue, makan cake 5 kotaK! haha. n sembang2 wif my gaLs... smpai satu2 naik ngantok. haha. sorie galz... kalo aku tk layan sgt.. maklumlah.. ramai org nk jumpa "Princess of the day" laa katekan.. =P muahahaha.

my presents:
-a set of brooch (very nice!!)
-a motivational book (its cool! i like the author!)
-$10+$10+$10+$5+$5+$5+$5=$50 (all plus together mak2 org kasi. hehehe)
-and.. gosh! i 4got to take the cards in the letter box! hmm.. nvrmind i'll go n
take 2molo mornin.. hehe. lupe da... (lupe sbb sibukz sgt..jgn marah!)

then on sun, my fam n i spent the day together n we went to the nearby beach. woW! so long never been to the beach! not 2 4get my cuzin bro. yeah he came along wif us. kewl!~ my bro n cuzin made alot of comedies and i video captured them. haha. so fun! i totally enjoy for this year... wouldn't noe how it will be 4 nxt year. am i gonna reach dat age? waAllahu'alam.. =)

dats the end of my birthdate n chalet story.. *the story dat helps me to wake up frm my dreamland*~

-now-pause-

BACK TO SCHOOL!
oh my God... so many projects, assingments and most challenging of all PRESENTATIONS!!! aaarrggghh!! so the very paisey! haha. the 1st time i did my presentation was on last week. mula2 gementar.. suara pon nak hilang. haha. paisey giller.. but luckily i have cooperate classmates n fwenz.. they help me to build my self-confidence. haha. slowly, i became firm n have e confidence through out the presentation. but cannot lari dari jokes ah. hehe. kalo tkde jokes mcm boring gitu kan. hahaha. well, this isn't a group presentation, but its personally 1 by 1. dats stressed me up! but now.. im ok2 laa. another 2 more presentations for the class n 1 more 4 the whole zuhrians! aaaarrrghhh!~ dgn the whole skool?? seram sejukk~... hehehe. paisey jiddan! hahahaha. tkpe.. relax.. kewl je... cukup time berdiri kat depan senyum, beri salam, lambai pastu ucapkan "wassalam". amaciam? ok tak? hahaha. oklahh.. nk hafal n blaja 4 nxt wk's test.. haiz.. life is getting more busierest! hahaha. dah mepek dah aku.. baik aku blah dulu.. =) *peace*

.::. oUtz.. sHa .::. 10:03 PM